LOTUS

was in the library the other day.. lookin' up on meningitis.. extended reading..

tired.. stressed

(coz cant really answer some questions from current sem 5 sitting for eos 5 - makes me think where do i stand now as a medical student)

decided to make origami - a lotus

so off i went into the paper oddysey, trying to recapture the technique i learnt and forgotten in the past..

(an avid 'origami-st' i am, excellent in making a pile of paper mache instead of animals, aeroplanes and the likes;p)

manage to do a few for g.wong.. then back to meningitis before giving up and went home..

next day..

the indian (not being racist or anything, just didn't have the opportunity to ask for her name lol) librarian a.k.a the fierce one, went up to me and said:

the fierce one: hey, i've been looking all over for you

lengzhaimus: err, yes.. what did i do this time?? (preparing for a 100m dash.. scared lei)

note: being lengzhai mus is about being a special entity 'scolded' and 'laughed at' by everyone.. including csu sisters, lecturers, staffs, friends and family.. sad case but that's life lol - nobody takes me seriously:(

back to the story,

the fierce one: oh yes indeed!

lengzhaimus: errr, i'm sorry?(trying very hard to make the innocent cute face ala puss in boots)

the fierce one: no la, i like ur lotus that u left on the table yesteday... very nice.. we (the librarian) was talking bout it..

lengzhaimus: (thinking of sarcasm) err, is that a good thing or a bad thing?

(oh yeah, and sarcasm is a big thing being lengzhaimus)

the fierce one: no no, it's really nice, the other librarian was asking who did it, but i know it's u.. u think us librarian buta-buta do ouor work? no we keep our eyes open one..

lengzhaimus: err ok.. good for u? hehehe

the fierce one: oh yeah, all the young librarian dun even know what's happening in the libray, but nothing escape me... but i think u should use harder paper.. it'll look nicer..

lengzhaimus:

(guilty as hell and being the social retard that i am..) errr do u wan me to make u one?

the fierce one: sure sure thank you.. how thoughtful of u

next thing i know, we were arranging on what colors to use and when can i pass it to her lol

this sort of things, as random as it may be.. just makes

my day.. that feeling that somebody actually took notice of u.. acknowledge your exsistence.. appreciate u as u r..

haah i'm happy now.. my euphoria

personally, i like the aunty..

very much into her work..

we used to chit chat when i was a 'library furniture' studying for exams..

those little chats which drive me when morale was on the dip..

those mini lectures and scolding coz somebody didnt take the books out of the shelves properly (yeah, i'm always the one to be blamed lol),

on how she smiles when she saw my drawings on the tables, be it for studies or just doodles (knowing for sure that i'll forget to rub it off so she has to do it tomorrow morning),

how we chat on how life as it is while she's waiting for her ride home outside imu..

how she always said, "goodnite, i'll see u again tomorrow"...

simply unforgettable..

just like a lotus,

if u try to peel it off, there's always another layer underneath.. it never ends..

and

no matter how murky the waters are, a lotus always floats.. keeping all the bad things below.

definately one of the sweet memories i'll treasure bout imu..

lotus.. i heart

and now, 'time for lotus-for-library-auntie- making' session