the perfect monday..

finally managed to pull my socks up to study after a few days of study hiatus..
it went so well that i didnt realized i spent the whole night doing so..
6am. monday is what it said.. the same time i realized i have my peads neuro that same morning..
juggling between cursing and trying to sleep i managed to dozed off (surprisingly) listening to cheryl cole's fight for this love.. before i went under.. i was so sure that i would miss my final day of peads neuro with dr. mah.. but like the old saying.. a man gotta do what a man gotta.. and that is sleep..

woke up later at 7 and i was like cursing under my breath..
first thing i did was checking the weather.. and it said -35 degrees celcius..
i was so sure this is going to be another one of those crappy mondays..

then things started to roll into the best monday ever.. like EVER..

i realised that it was 7am not pm.. but i felt so refreshed? maybe by substituting the crappy-ness out of my brain with pure knowledge, i can actually function beyond super human power!! i should do more THINKING from now on!!! lol

with my new super powers i danced to the bus stop.. all bundle up.. it is still -35 mind you..
within seconds, the bus came.. and when i was supposed to change bus to the children's hospital, the other bus was also ready to leave.. perfect timing!!! gosh.. my lucky day indeed

by 9.. i was already coat-tailing dr. mah to her clinics.. and then the glory of perfect monday keep rolling down the isle..
another residence was also tagging her, a geneticist.. and we got ot see yet another rare peads case.. a case of bilateral polymicrogyria!! even the geneticist said it's rare.. lovely parents.. lovely kid.. full of love.. full of joy..
my 'rare condition collections' is growing by the minutes.. then as i was about to leave the hospital for physical exam session, we met yet another family.. lovely family with a beautiful toddler.. she is sooo cute that i decided to get myself, one of those right there and then.. by those i meant lil' aliens that bears my genetic framework and would could me dad!!! lol.. and i don't DO wishful thinking.. another rare occasion i might say.. lol.. these.. boys and girls are the side effects of studying wayyy too much on lil' aliens.. i just couldn't stop smiling from then onwards.. sighhhhhh (this one is a good sigh lol)..

got a wonderful feedback from dr. mah too.. yay!!!!

so.. with springs in my steps i walked yet again into the cold weather but it's just not any cold weather.. it's now -16!!!! with sun shining bright and mighty.. felt like stripping down to my boxers and skipping in circle.. and that just stretched my 'smile' receptors even more.. i was literally beaming with joy!!! it's just one of those wonderful-disney-fairy-tale-esque feeling..

and just as i reached the bus stop.. the shining windshield of the bus greet me with the masculine rattle of the engine.. perfect timing.. perfect monday..

and physical exam was just perfect.. the doctor brought perfectly baked cookies and the session just breeze by.. and i still can't stop smiling.. everyone in the room was like asking me am i high on something.. perfect.. just perfect...

review sessions perfect.. dinnner perfect.. perfect day.. perfect!!! owh did i mentioned the sun? OMG it's the most perfect sun today..

just a perfect monday... oh i love mondays now!!!!!!

now, back to studying.. fingers crossed for a perfect tuesday?

conclusion: either i should study more.. or i should start the habit of cursing before sleeping and as i wake up.. lol

post #119: jump

was blog hopping when i came across a grafiti blog.
the blog posed a question that i find very very very intriguing,

"sometimes, i wonder what would happen if everyone in this world jumped at the same time"

very random, yes.
kinda remind me of the movie 300
when the persian army marched up to meet the fury of the spartan

very THE man;p

bradycardia?

why was the baker admitted to the hospital?

(drumrolls)
he got bread-ycardia

yes.. i'm super bored..
shared this with hui lin.. then she said: shitla ur bwain.. what does it contain..

then i dawned on me.. what is actually inside my brain.. to think of such nonsense(S).. seems a whole load of mess.. i bet if scientists were to 'excavate' my brain they will realize that it's similar to most 'ang-mo's' garages.. full with junks.. unused, crappy stuffs they tried to hide from the eyes which are not theirs.
that is, what i believe the condition of my brain as of right now.. full of crappy load of shit!

call this a mid-life crisis if u want, but in a few months time i'm going to be a 25 year-old geezer with nothing but crap to talk about.. i want to blame my IMU lecturer for engraving the fact that 25 is THE AGE where you are held responsible for the desicions that you make/made.. and hui lin for make me 'work' my brain a bit.. damn you all.. lol

but then again.. if i were to organize a 'spring-cleaning' of my brain.. there won't be... ME no more..
desicion, desicion, desicions.... gosh..

arghhh.. i'll decide when i turn 25.. how's that... ahaks

on a lighter note..

need to stop laughing.. or at least, change the way i laugh
or else i'm gonna drop dead from laughing one of these days.. not a bad way to go on second tot.. lol
it's just that there's too much valsalva pressure.. either mallory-weiss tear or ruptured bowels..

when boredom strikes

been snowing everyday since the start of this week

all i can do is studying.. but i can't
my heart is just not in it right now

so instead of moping around, complaining
decided to be productive, appreciative

1st step.. sleep
2nd step.. i'll tell u when i wake up

lol

while i whine;(

Today, upon a bus,
I saw a girl with golden hair.
And wished I was as fair.
When suddenly she rose to leave,
I saw her hobble down the aisle.
She had one leg and wore a crutch.
But as she passed, she smiled.
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have two legs the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I `d go.
With eyes to see the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear what I'd know.
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have blessed indeed, the world is mine.

I stopped to buy some candy.
The lad who sold it had such charm.
I talked with him, he seemed so glad.
If I were late, it `d do no harm.
And as I left, he said to me,
"I thank you, you've been so kind.
You see," he said, "I `m blind"
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have two eyes the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I `d go.
With eyes to see the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear what I'd know.
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have blessed indeed, the world is mine.


I saw a child with eyes of blue.
He stood and watched the others play.
He did not know what to do.
I stopped a moment and then I said,
"Why don't you join the others, dear?"
He looked ahead without a word.
And then I knew. He couldn't hear.
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have two ears the world is mine.

With feet to take me where I `d go.
With eyes to see the sunset's glow.
With ears to hear what I'd know.
Oh God, forgive me when I whine.
I have blessed indeed, the world is mine

taken from azroque's facebook post

#114 - a GREAT saturday

one perfect day
i loved it when that happen

started off with a roti canai by abang zack
with with beef curry
while watching united
painfully dismantle blackburn
2-0 with a GREAT goal from berba
cause of concerns, how united seems to lost the creative edge over teams
sigh
but a GREAT win indeed

walked to main campus in shorts
thank god for chinook
played squash with aqsa, bella and janet
2 full hours.. yeah

got back took a GREAT reviving nap
1 hour REM bliss

then being mus-so-keen
decided to pay a visit to RGH
unit 62 -Obstetrics

suit up, off to an hour bus ride
had a GREAT conversation with the driver
from scotland
awesome guy with awesome stories
yeah, he had on of those not -s0-many-people-day
all out trick-or-treating and partying the night off

went i reached RGH, was greated by a GREAT doctor in DR.A
with great staffs
i felt like i was in a team or something
1 specialist, 1 resident, 1 clinical clerk, 1 noob
hahaahha
tag the resident who was sooo nice
and greeted by all leng lui nurses.. life never been this GREAT
lol

it's a pretty slow day that saturday
driven by the fact that mothers would hold one day back to take their children out for halloween
or teens, preferring to poison their fetus with booze
lol

but then, one hour in (9pm) things got a bit interesting
triage after triage
cervical dilatations after spottings
i've seen everything from obs point of view

then in came a complicated consult
a new expecting mother
twins - (now only i know that twins are a completely different ball game in term of delivery and all)
the mother also have a horse shoe kidney
how rare is that.. i'm like the magnet to rarity..lol
she was very much in pain, asking for epidural
but not before 1 resident, 1 nurde and one specialist perform vaginal examinations
just to be sure that she is not in labour
for what i can tell, it's very very very hard to measure the cervix
both, from the patient's perspective and the attending
too bad i can't witness the delivery process
cervix still closed
i feel every her every contraction man.. the pain!!!! i cringe every single time man..
she even swore at her mum.. lol funny leh...
one word of advice: dun mess with pregnant moms, especially when they are in labour!!!!

btw if u wan to have a painless delivery, one thing u can do is have a pyelonephritis
lool
the baby will just slide out
preterm and risk of fetal infection but yeah.. win some lose some
hahhaah
i got this from a patient who really wanted to have a full term baby
all the best to her
from then onwards, it's all about checking new mothers and their baby
soooooo niceeeeeeeeeeee
GREAT emotion from just watching them.. very warm..

as the clock strike 12am
was called in to 'assist' in a c-sec
assist = hold some stuffs, shift the patient and stay out of the way!!!
felt like a total noob, but it's ok
the c-sec was soooo fast (12mins)
and we had a very fiesty baby girl
sooooo nice the whole process
maybe not as dramatic as a vaginal delivery but still....

then the punch line
the Dr. A asked the parent:
"so, do you wan a halloween baby or a memorial day baby?"
it was 12am and it happens to be day light saving day..
1st nov 12am, clocks turn back to 31st oct 11am
kinda interesting how they joked about it..

a new life brought to this world
with love aloft

after 4 hours + 1 extra hours to make it really 12am
decided to call the day off
a few chitty-chatters with the doctors and staffs
i'm off unit 62
4 hours of GREAT learning FUN FUN FUN

and another GREAT thing happenned after that
there was not supposed to be any buses at that time
but somebody decided to pour gasoline on the bus, so the driver have to change bus
end result - i dun have to take a cab home!!!
yay!!!
with another GREAT scottish driver.. hahaha

the cap everything off
a GREAT night sleep (almost forgot how it felt;p)

#113 - what if's

yet another random post
after yet another sleppless night..
heck.. maybe i should seek help.. soon!!!!

anyway..
was browsing thru pics, videos and other stuffs
bit's and parcels of what peeps pronounce as memories
the past, flashbacks

then this miniscule brain of mine suddenly functions (for once)
why would peeps want to look back into time, their past, history
it is indeed no longer their story.. it's his' story
belonging to their old self
and u know it as much as i do
we no longer are the our old self
we evolved, we changed, we grew

i might be biased and dun get me wrong
i really like my past.. my footprints
i do believe i have a great background, prelude to what i am now
just that nagging WHAT IF'S questions
really really hate it
it's as if i'm not content with what i have now
questioning every move i used to take
every path throdden by these legs
come on.. move on already
next page.. next chapter

but whenever i looked back
there it is
the monster of WHAT IF'S
lurking down the alley
blocking the path to 'the tomorrow'
leading u to an endless roundabouts and u-turns

denise tot me something once
there's no more u-turns
there shouldn't be
even if u made a mistake, just take a tiny step back
reflect then move on!!!
(couldn't believe i'm taking que's from a bimbo potatohead)

now i really cannot sleep..

have to admit, i loved the 'WHAT IF'S' box
with it u can be anything u want, with just the 'right' choice
u can be a superstar! a great lover! an awesome architect!
a pianist! anyone! just anyting u would ever imagine
but this BOX shall remained closed
cause nothing good can ever come out off it
the pandora box!!

screw me for thinking of such nonsense
mind you, i never reviewed my previous post
write write write -- publish
which explains all the rubbish i've posted before

now that i mentioned it, there's nothing 'wise' about me projecting out of this chunk of hot stuff
crap crap crap
what if i'm a lil' wiser?
what if i can be a lil' smarter?
what if i'm a lil' less socially retarded?

~

ask me again in 10 years time
i dun think i wan/can answer that now

memories are there to remind u of ur old self
not to predict what u could be in the future
it is there to let u know that u used to be better/worse
so u can do someting to change it
memoirs are there to make u aware that u were once a somebody
apart of this somebody u call self
(what philisophical crap is that!!!)

all i know.. i dun like the what if's question

i'm the servant of the Almighty
serving HIS cause
looking back on mistakes
an ardent student of non-repetiting cycle

~but so far i failed?

i am indeed... a lengzhai ;p

#112 - ASTROBOY!!!!

after 'that humiliating' game
we went out for dim sum
with janet as the honorary guest
the birthday dim sum girl

budin, bulat, lee shi, janet, vi-en, day-o, siti, kak ridza, abang joe in liverpool jersey!!!!, ilia in liverpool jersey!!! jer and me

2 revelation that day:
1. shouldnot brag about united in fornt of abang joe anymore;p
2. one my favorite dim sum dish (one being the egg tart, the other one being the curry octopus), the carrot cake, was deem not halal!!!

whatthefreakinggfishiswrongwiththemmatasepetpeeps

carrot cake supposed to be CARROT and CAKE
where got people put pork inside!!!!!
all this while, i've been eating pork!!! after vehemently asking the owner for no pork dish!!
each and everytime man.. i asked he said no.. i asked he said no..
until that day.. i found the minced piece of un-holy delight;p

haiyo.. i'm saying goodbye to that restaurant.. F that F restaurant
silver dragon, i shall be your loyal dim sum eater from now on..
lol

which means that i need another outlet to let things cool down..
ASTROBOY!!!
OMGOSH OMGOSH OMGOSH
i even got a t-shirt from japan for this show..
yay..
ok la the show.. not bad.. good enuf for a lengzhai like me
had a good laugh and great company
day-o, vi-en, janet and leeshi..

yay..

woohoo!!!

check out my astroboy tee... can see the insides from different angle.. woohoo..

i dun care what u say about my jakun tee but i'm proud of it.. lol

#111 eating humble pie

sigh~
deserving lost
there's nothing you can say more than that
roon left his boots at home
anderson was left on the bench

expectin lostsa bashing from me dad
abang joe
abang sham
and the list shall go on and on and on

come december
the real race will start
no worries

~
yet

;p

TONIGHT WE DINE IN HELL!!!!

THE RED DEVIL'S WAY!!!
ROAR!!!!

united at anfield
yet another epic encounter
hopefully it's going to be as dramatic as the citeh game
without the shaky defense of course

anderson to shine
with rooney and his usual self

fingers crossed

image taken from http://sport.mthai.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/09/anderson_rooney300.jpg

109# where the wild things are

yup, we went out to watch the show after the exam result
not a bad show at all
at times quite freaky and dark

but the best part of going out for the show tonight was chris' new toque
hand made, hand sowned
just for the show and of course for halloween

a nice 'night-out' indeed
good movie, great company
ditto!

108# an afternoon off

been a long time i had such pleasure
so while waiting for the bus home
sat on the cold grass
can't believe it's fall and it's already freezing
but the best part of the afternoon was the sun
gosh.. it was so majestic today
with the ray, came warmth
when i got back to my senses
i have been 'sun-ray-bathing' for 3 hours!!
with my ass frozen stiff but my mood to the 7th heaven

i feel like superman
generating power from the sun
i feel like a cat
sprawled under the sunlight with no care in the world
i feel...
ALIVE!
feeling the grace of the almighty
the love of the creator

the best day of the week
been a gloomy week
clouds, strong wind and rain
but like they always say, there's always a silver lining in everything in life
and i tend to seize every moment of it

sun.. me like

p/s: checked the forecast, snow on monday!!! noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

#107 - image of the week

gosh.. i just love this photo
the CSY pose..

curi from cheemz facebook album..

it's like nothing has change
not even one bit..

~lalala~

106# home visit

every now and then,
we were asked to go for home visits
and i was pretty lucky this time
great partner
marvelous patient

so off we went to the patient's place
lisa (my canvas painting mate) drove us of course
a nice retiring home for the elderly

a remarkable day
tips to charm an elderly
bring a pot of nice flower
and wear a bright red tie
they'll love u for that.. every single occupant of that place..
felt like a celebrity.. lol

anyway, medical condition aside
let me tell u the story of this remarkable person i met
MISS H, 93 years of age (yeah, she's still available!!)
one thing i really like about her is how she kept on going
loving the world aroud her
the people and every single thing in life

started off teaching up to grade 8 student in a rural setting
was forced to quit because of her condition
oh how she love teaching the lil' ones

down but not out, she pursued another career
a telegraph operator in lake louise
i nice place to settle in, working in view the full view of the mountains

by that time she's in her late 70's
she started the unthinkable
'let's scale the mountains she said one day'
so of she went once again..
capturing mountains after mountains
mount temple, sentinel pass just name it..

she can even climb the calgary tower 5 times in a day!!

"i loved my life, and life has treated me well"
"all i need is my family and my will to try something new"
"cause to me, everday is a new adventure"
"good or bad, you just have to learn to live with it"

i'm 24 and i can't even will myself out of bed on some day
curse long hours in a slow day of clinic

how i wish i have her love for life
the energy to keep going on and on
to me, she's like the energizer bunny

i hope this post will remind me how noob i am
need to improve, need to learn more

lisa, miss H and lengzhai

the multiple life time achievement awards she got so far
she's an active contributor to the society
what have i done?

105# still can't sleep... another career option..;p

A SOCCER PLAYER!!

although i'm not 'that' good at it
it might be a nice option

good pay
another way to keep your body at that pristine condition before i become a geriatric case
(no ageism intended)
and definately a simple life
it's kicking balls around in the park
how hard can it be?
lol

anyway, here are some picture from this season of intramural frenzies
for now it's soccer.. until i got a bearing of how busy i'll be in the next few weeks

the competitive co-ed intramural team -- team kakablob..
post 3rd game
record: P3 W2-D1-L0

p/s: those white stuffs on the background was the result of a hail storm earlier that day.. luciky it lasted for a bit only..

the rec co-ed intramural team -- team dinesh
post 1st game
record: P2 W2-D0-L0

but i think i really should get some sleep
it's starting to get to me
especially in considering other job options;p

p/s: but playing soccer with these bunch sure are fun..

#104 - can't sleep

been having trouble sleeping lately..

but that is not always a bad thing..
i can study more
i can watch more movies
i can msn/ym peeps in different time zone

but last night
due to extreme sien-ness
decided to go on a telephone rampage
lol

after calling my dad
my fingers just can't stop dialling

called up to 20 peeps from 4 continents
but can only get thru 13
not a bad work for one night
i can be a telephone operator now
(lately been discovering a lot of potential careers aside from medicine;p)

but it's really nice to talk to peeps i haven't spoken to for ages
and reminding peeps that i'm as lengzhai as ever..
yay for that..

discovered another side of me
from a joke shared with auntie angelene

u know why am i sooo kiasu?
coz i'm MOOSE-SO-KEEN

but in actual reality, due to my MALAY-NESS;P
i'm MOOSE-TAK-KEEN

i'm really happy now..
but then how too sleep now?
sigh~~

hahahaha

mental note.. it's easier to sleep if u r depressed..
how i wish i got that gene now.. lol

#103 -- maybe i should start a new career -lol

back by popular demands
(and my lazy-ness to type in anything new)
the art of free flow henna!

let's start with the wedding henna..

and being and A.D.D-er (attention deficit disorder)
lets put it on oneself;p

lol... check out my new bracelet... courtesy of the host..
(gosh.. u could only imagine the pain one have to undergo to put it thru one's hand)


and then,
we, the calandar boyz (basically my housemates) held an open house
during the 2nd week of raya..
we cooked good foods
served sweet drinks
entertained lotsa desserts
and i was asked to henna-d the night again
models were: kak ridza, ilia and siti


kak ridza's
ilia's

siti's

and what can you do with a tube of henna and a skin abrasion from soccer?
u henna it!!! lol (i bet it have some healing properties lol

yes, i know.. i'm too free lol

finally.. the weekend..

pheww...
a hectic week indeed
weekend - rejuvenation..

not one to dwell on how tired i am..
but, i really am DEAD tired this week

all because i tried to be somekind of a superhuman
like naruto with his endless chakra..

after a week in bed with the flu bug (a nasty affair i might say)
i decided to have the most productive week ever
so while doing neuro..
moose-so-keen, trying to be a smart ass:

1. did neuro.. duuhhh ~monday
2. did 4 hours of geriatric selective ~monday noon
3. played basketball intramurals with the rec team ~ monday eve
4. spent the night dwelling on the geriatric cases log.. (i have a logbook? wow) ~monday eve
5. prepare for my peads neuro selective ~ wee tuesday morn
6. 5 hours of peads neuro selective ~ tues morn
7. neuro ~ tues noon
8. volleyball intramurals league with kakapo team ~ tues eve
9. peads neuro logbook (i have 2 logbook now? wow wow) ~ wee wednesday
10. neuro ~ wed morn
11. catching up for neuro after the 1 week absence ~ wed noon
12. soccer intramurals comp team league kakablobs ~ wed eve
13. neuro catch up ~ wed eve
14. neuro review ~ thurs morn
15. catch up sleep... afternoon nap in the lounge.. aaahhhhh
16. woke up with a "shit there's a neuro quiz tomorrow"
17. kiasu kiasu kiasu
18. owh shit... patient assigment write up!! kiasu kiasu kiasu
19. back to quizzzzzzz........
20. and finally friday night.. restttttt

dunno how i fare this time for the quiz but, sigh..
fingers crossed! gulp

and to make matters worse.. it snowed all week long
scratch that... it HAIL-ed all week long
it's freaking october and it's already -15 degrees celcius?

not complaining.. just a reminder to myself never to over-book ever again
i ain't no superman;p
but the best thing about it is.. i survived.. i freaking got out of the rubble unscathed
weakened yes but definately stronger
beaming with pride

and the chinook wind is coming.. it'll be warm again soon yay!!!

now back to prep for peads neuro next week..
nahhhh.. let us sleep for now..
restorative euphoria

but not after cleaning up my room
and organizing my logbook(S)
and my educational prescription
and my clinical apraisal read up
bla bla bla
shit.. i'm overbooking myself again..

hopeless lengzhai:p

101#

one fine tuesday morning
i got an urgent message
"can you please help put/design henna for my wedding today?"
"130pm ok?"

so..............

last tuesday
22nd september 2009
i was appointed as the 'mak andam' for a wedding
a malaysian wedding in calgary!!!

the couple requested to be anonymous for now and i shall respect that

a pretty simple yet elaborate event

but the best part is i was given 3 hours notice to do so
to design, to put it on
sweat blood~

it's a good thing i dun have any classes after 1230pm
that'll give me an hour time to make something happen
NOT!!!

didnt design any, reached late
so what can we do? FREE STYLE!!!! yeahhhh


with a tube in my hand, gung ho!!



errr.. dunno where this came from;p

done! fuhhhh!!!

bless the couple..

and that's it.. my involvement in the wedding;p
NOT!!!!!

back to my normal role, i'm the chicken fry-er and after that to my natural habitat: the babysitter!!! gosh where do those kids got their energy from!!!

all in all a pretty fun day indeed
but the key point of this post is:

PEER PRESSURE SUCKS!!!
~because of them, i was bombarded with the "when's ur turn" question from most of the peeps there!! lol

100#

didn't realize this would be the 100th post
lollifying achievement for an A.D.D-er like me!

on the sad note,
this wont be a happy post
sigh~~~

down with somekind of a viral infection
was restricted from going to the hospital (kena scolded somemore)
felt being left out
academically & socially

all this after almost a year long spell of sickness free period
another milestone for someone who have a weak immune system
but once it hit it's stride
boom booom pow!!!

first up.. bruised arm without no reason, no aetiology
then came the sprain thumb.. takes forever to heal
(volleyball season start next week!!! heal heal heal!!!!!)
then while playing soccer, asthma like symptoms
cough cough cough
then came the fever
runny nose, coryza
then back pain on the right flank
sigh sigh sigh

now, bed-ridden
hoping it's nothing serious
stay away H1N1

on the bright side,
can spent my days pranking peeps in the wee hours
lol
catch up with studies
and play the sick role
the lazy bum with food served on time
yay!!!!!

p/s: it turns out to be a happy post in the end

"success lasts until someone screwed it up
failures are forever"

~greg. house.

got that from the new season of HOUSE. quite entertaining i might say.
patch adam with a bit more spice and cursings.

mellow yet dramatic

crossing my fingers for this one.. seems a bit to 'soap opera-ish'

HEROES just came back too
same ol' same ol'
i want to be the "spongeman"!!!

with all those new series up and about this week
there's only one conclusion we can safely gather

FALL IS OFFICIALLY HERE
LET THE FREEZING BEGINS!

goodbye~

a sad day for 'the kid in me'

YOSHITO USUI IS DEAD

the creator of crayon shin chan left us from a hiking mishap
R.I.P

thanks for all the laughters

manchester derby

with all the trash talking
and hype throughout the week
the derby game reinstated the beauty of soccer

drama
determination
joy, jubilation
sorrow

lotsa HEART

and a CLEAN game

loved how united players 'accept' tevez
not so much the fans, come one, he pour his heart into every motion, every goal, sweat, when he's still with red devils
and his determination... gosh how i wish i can study like how he play soccer;p

the evergreen giggsy
the will power of roon-ey
berba showing his true form
and owen, yes owen!!!!

ecstasy~

and this is why i love soccer
this is why i bleed united

p/s: almost missed my eid prayers because of the late drama.. lol

urmmm... no comments..

got this from jeremy..
can't belive my eyes..

it's a freaking children show for goodness sake!!!

lol

un-moose-tivated

motivation at all-time low for a couple of weeks
for no reason whatsoever
"mid-life" crisis?
NEVER!!!

been rendering myself to total exhaustion for the past few weeks
all for the sake of proving to my housemates,
fasting is not an excuse to laze around and sleep

pick up soccer every tuesday + 3 random pick up games
one interspecies cup soccer match: kakapo vs blobfish
which we ceremoniously won
(welcoming soccer game against the new first years)
cycling to-and-fro, route hospital at least 3 times/week
one squash game with new tapau girl janet

end result: a lean body mass index (i think;p) and a zombified lengzhai

apart from that, been cooking loads of stuffs lately, for break fast
you guys wont believe it if i told u what we cooked
even organized two iftars (buka puasa), for roughly 30 peeps
trying out new recipes sure are fun
even manage to learnhow to make a simple dessert.. yay!!!

what else?
owh yeah, of late, it's been a scheduling nightmare!!
neurology, geriatric 440, core, PE
gosh can't believe i've survived 3 weeks of insanity
sigh..
still surviving tho..
coz the weekends were just great
UNITED manage to outgunned the gunners and trim the spurs of totenham
rule over the north london clubs.. yay!!
nad i just got my baju raya courtesy of kak ridza

so all is well
for now...

motivation... come to ME!!!!



p/s: reading back, i think this post sucks big time!!!!

i told u sooo...

it was midday
25 celcius worth of summer bliss

first day of high school after the summer hiatus
i was on the way to foothills hospital
dreading what lies ahead for me today

at the bus stand
reading the OHCM ~ NEUROLOGY
my chemical romance was on the shuffle mode, belting all the punk emo-ness, full blast

up came a bus
20-heritage

with CAD2.50 in my hands
i went thru the door
as i was dropping the coins into the slot
the bus driver said:

"NOPE, IT'S OK.. TODAY IS FREE FOR HIGH-SCHOOLERS"

i'm sooooo cuteeeeeee
hahahaha

my new best friend!!

out with the old,


in with the new,



gynecomastia, here i come!!!!
i'm soooo screwed!!!

dreading the day i need to use omeprazole again:(

sienzzzz!!!

u know that it's not a good lecture when even the 'lecturer giving the lecture'
was yawning halfway through it...

lol..

strength

"i have MS, but MS doesn't have me!"

the highlight of the week for me

one week back to calgary
low morale, missing home, jet-lagged (tho i still think i'm jet-lag-proof;p)
missing 2 days of school
beleaguered
feeling stoopid as usual,

those words woke me up like an alarm clock, buzzing with excitement in the wee hours of a perfect morning

it was on a lazy wednesday morning,
i was asked by my preceptor to perform the MOCA (MONTREAL COGNITIVE ASSESSMENT) and the MINI MENTAL STATUS examination on a patient
for a minimum of an hour
(~was not even taught properly to do so too!!! - yeah i'm a slacker)
and we, a core team of 5, were divided in pairs..
and i was singled out to do it on my own because i'm too lengzhai to be paired that day.. :l (lol)
so i went in to the examination room, painstalkingly cursing my lack of knowledge on things at hand

there sat a timid middle aged women
well into her 40's
looking very calm and yet tired in a way

being an honest stud (:p) i started the interview with:
"to begin with, i have no clue whatsoever on what we are supposed to be doing today, so bear with me yeah?"
to which she replied:
"it's ok, neither do i. let's just pretend that u know ur stuffs and we'll see how it goes yeah? i'm just happy that i can help students like u to help me!"
a burst of laughter and off we went into the wilderness (lol)

we went thru the whole thing as smooth as a well ironed up shirt
was actually surprised at my own achievement
plus a negative results - which is good news to her as well
all in all, a yay day for us

we finished quite early (wayyyyy too early..)
i get bored quite easily, can't help it, i'm a restless bugger
so, being a social retard a started asking questions about any random things
kinda like a random unorganized history
then came the key moment, i asked her to show me her perscription
she stood up, walked to her purse with a slight unstable gait
but she tried her best to mask it

questions after questions
then she told me that she's not supposed to tell me that she have Multiple Sclerosis
~that darn preceptor of mine trying to outwit me hey!!! haha
then we talked quite a bit about the disease and how she's handling it
the natural history etc etc

then guilt ran down my spine
i didn't know that hte MOCA and mini mental assessment was quite taxing on her
and to even walk a bit would squished the living daylight outta her
but still she tried to hide it.. putting on the 'i'm normal make-up'
apologizing repeatedly, (altho that's a norm for me coz everytime i take histroy i used the "i'm sorry but..." charm) we continue on chatting bout how the disease is affecting her life
trained by the calgary-cambridge guideline, i asked the "what are your main concerns" to end the session

to which she replied after a long pause and a sad look on her face:

"well to tell you the truth, i have millions concern bout what lays ahead, coz i have a cousin who, unfortunately, got the severe spectrum of this disease.. every single day is a worry to me, a struggle. but i tried not to think about it. i tried to move on with what i have.. make the best out of everything.. my family, they've been so great to me all these years and i dun wan to hold them down. i wan them to FEEL life, to have their own LIFE..
it was during one of my rehab sesssion that i realized how selfish i was.. she asked me about THE CHAIR, then i retaliated, "i dun need a chair.. i can walk fine on my own!!!! then she asked me "when was ur last visit to the zoo with ur family?" i said, "a couple of years ago..." with clairvoyance before i stopped dead there.. "a few years ago...", "a few years ago!!!!".... i was holding my family back.. i'm the one with the disease but they are the one suffering from it!! then, i got the chair.. with THE CHAIR, i was able... we were able to be like a family again.. to travel.. to go to museums, my husband always wanted to go the europe, and with THE CHAIR he was able to do it with me.. and life have been good to me ever since..
my mother, she was diagnosed with diabetes, and being old, she never did fall into the habit of taking her meds, she just lived on, happily with her family around her.. until the disease almost took her legs.. but she;s in a better place now, before the disease took over her.. she's definately in a better place right now.. definately..
that's what i learnt from my mother...

I HAVE MS, BUT MS DOESN'T HAVE ME!!!

with a knock on the door from my preceptor, signalling the end of the session,
i thanked her with teary eyes, (i said teary eyes, i didn't cried!!! that's a statement)
all my respect to her strength and courage
taking human will to another level
for the benefit of others

to end it all she said:
"no, no, no, i should be thanking you instead, you are helping the likes of me with all kinds of conditions.. learn from me and other too.. study well.. may the world be a better place then with people like you. thank you.. i really enjoyed talking to you.. it was nice of u to remind me why i must fight on.. you should too, no matter how hard life eating u, just hold on and things will be ok... thank you.."

as she slowly dragged herself out of the room
all i can do is watch (fool!!! go and help her!!!)
and
savour a human spirit, kindered with self sacrifice and strength
in a fragile body
but a much more wonderful core than mine

sigh~

living with MS for 20years now with no sign of remission



multiple sclerosis is an inflammatory demyelinating disorder of the central nerve system defined by episodes disseminated in time and neuroanatomical lesion

p/s: when i was explaining to the patients about the test and how it's going to progress, due to some irritating question within the assessment, i tried to apologized beforehand by saying:
"some of these questions and tasks might be a lil' bit odd and repetitive, so please do not be... (a pause)... pissed ok?"
luckily i had built 'some' rapport.. otherwise i would be on the next flight back to malaysia if she were to report my 'language apt-ness' lol

haishhh..

dissappointed
but at least united tried to play an open game
against the very best team in open play
in the end pure football win
how it's supposed to be

LEAGUE CUP CHAMPION
PREMIER LEAGUE CHAMPION
WORLD CLUB CUP CHAMPION

FA CUP SEMIFINALIST
1ST RUNNER UP CHAMPION LEAGUE CUP

all in all
a good year indeed

the night to remember?

BP checked!
united scarft on!
united jersey on!
united pants on!
prematch hightlight, watched!

the moment of truth
to cap off a remerkable season

CHAMPIONS LEAGUE FINAL
ROME'2009

MANCHESTER UNITED vs BARCELONA

1230pm calgary time
it's GO GO GO
fingers crossed!!

take a breather..

A little counter-argument to the logic medicine:


Q: Doctor, I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life. Is
this true?
A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it... don't
waste them on exercise.
Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make
you live longer;
that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it
faster.
Want to live longer? Take a nap.

Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?
A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and
corn.
And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an
efficient
mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain?
Eat chicken.
Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable).
And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance
of vegetable products.

Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?
A: No, not at all. Wine is made from fruit. Brandy is distilled wine,
that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even
more
of the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain. Bottoms
up!

Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?
A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one.
If you have two bodies, your ratio is two to one, etc.

Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise
program?
A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is: No Pain...Good!

Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?
A: YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!!! ..... Foods are fried these days in
vegetable oil.
In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more
vegetables be bad for you?

Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft
around the middle?
A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger.
You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger
stomach.

Q: Is chocolate bad for me?
A: Are you crazy? HELLO Cocoa beans ! Another vegetable!!!
It's the best feel-good food around!

Q: Is swimming good for your figure?
A: If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.


Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?
A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape!

Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptions you may have had
about food and diets.

And remember:

'Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention
of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body,
but rather to skid in sideways -
Chardonnay in one hand - chocolate in the other -
body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and
screaming 'WOO HOO, What a Ride'



AND.....

For those of you who watch what you eat, here's the final word on
nutrition and health.
It's a relief to know the truth after all those conflicting nutritional
studies.

1. The Japanese eat very little fat
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

3. The Chinese drink very little red wine
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

4. The Italians drink a lot of red wine
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

5. The Germans drink a lot of beers and eat lots of sausages and fats
and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

CONCLUSION

Eat and drink what you like.
Speaking English is apparently what kills you.

BRITISH GOT TALENT? CANADA ALSO GOT WHAT!!!!

inspired by the reality talent show

and by ganesh recent facebook post
and trying to prove a point

fully prepared
(by prepared i mean and empty stomach on a saturday morning)
and after hours of training and practice sessions
(cumulative from the first time i had one lol)

here is a world rcord attempt by yours truly
lol

record: 7 ferrero roche in one minute

and gracefully
i have to fail
for the sake of human nature
and my bulging tummy
lol

lesson learnt

p/s: really hard wei... plus the fact that i dun like nuts!!! (excuse la ni hahahaha)
pp/s: yes i'm still lengzhai thank u

owh owh: i just realized that i didn't do it the right way
supposed to eat them one by one.. wtf

sedentary

why does it have to rain today!!!
football's cancelled and now i have nothing to do

study? heck i wont study at 7pm
coz it's 7pm!!!
it's freaking 7pm!!!

haishhhh

well if i cant do sport today
i shall do the next best thing
reflects on sporting events!!!

muahahaha

first on the list is on how united gonna go 6 points clear tomorrow IF they manage to beat wigan
all in the midst of transfer speculation
cron to real madrid
and tevez to anywhere but united

why???? just stay put, shut ur trap and play proper football - cron
and pleez sign him ferguson, tevez has united written all over his heart and soul
haishhhh

on a lighter note,
i kinda missed playing volleyball since the season ended
now no more jumping about like a sissy
no more serving like sharapova (cant believe i squel whenever i serve lol)
no more busting my knee caps
no more breaking my 2nd pair of glasses
no more kicking my teammate in the face (was trying to save the ball ok)
no more high-fiving after we score apoint
no more emo moments from Nathan after we lost (lol)
no more sarcasm from AJ and Jen Bruce

haishhhh


the kakapo team

the international team - grease monkeys


no more basketball too.. i know i damn noob but it was fun runnnig around without knowing what to do lol

the kakapo basketball team B

and with the summer air breezing in
no more snowboarding for me

the least i can do now is play football when it's not raining
cycle to school
and
re-strung my rusting squash racquets

cant believe it's sooo expensive to re-string my sweet heart - yelly
which explain my 4 months old new love - n.b. reddy:p

p/s: why do i have a feeling my 'pelampung' around the waistline wont go away?
cycle more, more squash, more soccer!!!!!!

this is just stoooopid!!!!

who ever said there's no drama in soccer

lol

reality check... there's no stopping united..
the red tide just swept the blue bay...

huh.. brilliant.. just brilliant:p

me mountain people.. me no need glasses.. me noob

spring has finally arrive here in calgary
FINALLY!!!

and what do u do if u live in a city surrounded by mountains?
HIKE!!!!

destination - sheep river valley

the hike
i wouldnt say it's a tough hike but the view is just amazing, cool terrain (hard, mud, rocky, snowy etc etc)
and it's a good way to shed some of these 'i dunno what' around my belly
lol

but the sad part is, i lost my glasses AGAIN!!!!! arghhhhhhhh

hike members - team A:
moose
greg + gamble the 'debarked' dog
siobhan
miles

team B:
mikey blue eyes
anastasia
aatif
matt b

checking in with the rangers

urmmm, maybe bot this trail lol

foran grade trail? i think.. cant believe there's still snow

first peak? rockies man!!!


2nd peak? can actually see city of calgary froom here in the distance!! wow

lunch pit stop


take note that there's no snow around me
I AM THAT HOT!!!!! lol
and the last sighting of my glasses
it either melted coz i was super HOTTT dat day or drop as i slipped down the trail
aishhhh....



hotttttt!!!!



conclusion - late for class the next morning lol
but definately worth it