there is a fracture... i need to fix it!!!

kid-ding one-self

after a week of doing peads, i came to one realization..
i am no joker..

instead, i am THE JOKER

why so serious!!!!!!

the best thing about peads so far is how u gain trust from parents and the child alike.. how they appreciate the long hours put in.. how they hug you and said "u r the bestest doctor... i wanna be just like you".. how u gain confidence from just their smile.. on how they inspire you to do better next time...

the not so nice about peads are the fact that they are really really sick, they need you to know stuffs that can help them, they need u to be on ur toes always as they doesnt go hand in hand with the time-space continuum.. one minute they say weeeeeeee, the next second auwieeeeeeeeee....

my heart is with peads but my common sense tell me to stay away...

emo-ness, but to me physicians start treating their patients with a smile on their face....

time to get make-up and purple monkeysuit..

the calm before the storm

beginning monday, i will heed all my inefficiencies and awkwardness toward pediatrics
the one specialty peeps keep on telling me, are made for me
maybe it's my social inaptitude, my immature sense of seriousness or maybe just because i'm a retard
but for sure i think it's not MADE for me..

that is why i'm kinda freaked out by the thought of handling sick kids
as in 'peeing-in-my-pants-freaking-out'


i love kids but i dun like the notion of being around sick kids and the parents
and yes, the material might be too overwhelming -- to me..

but hopefully, time will tell.. and god will lead me to the path that is destined for me
insya-Allah

on a lighter note, i had one of the most chilaxing weekend for quite some time.
just lazying around and cleaning the place up a bit.. gave me a sense of direction and belonging-ness
might sound a bit off the scale but doing chores calms me down for some reason.. my source of endorphins
before u think i'm a neat freak or something, i would like to stress here that never have i been a tidy person.. missing stuffs and hopping around piles of laundry is a norm to me.. a work of art in picasso-esque;p

and the best things about cleaning up is, u'll find treasure lost since ancient time.. like my old notes saying how i urgently need to lose weight or study more.. kinda like a self-reflection thing.. before-and-after.. and i'm proud to say i'm satisfied with the changes so far.. not quite there yet.. but getting there..

a post of random ideas on current well-being and future hopes... now that's a first from me

a tribute

one of the Super Heroes In Training member has graduated from Heroes school and finally earned his superheroes badge just recently.

i give you, Dr. siaw chye hing a.k.a princess Aurora. the last sighting of siaw as a fellow goofball.. and with Dr. LEE

gimme a few weeks before i can come up with a hero persona for dr. Siaw.
i promise, it's going to be one of my greatest masterpiece..

either that or the lame-est effort to further emphasized the need for me to buck up and follow the trend..

we will follow suit.. fingers-crossed
insya-Allah
congratulation siaw.. may u be the best-est doctor out there.
and yes.. to Dr. Lee too.. time for u too cheer lead us to graduation or kick our asses there;p

how to train ur cacat-ness

night fury!!!! roarrrrr....

my favourite movie of the year.. a story i can relate to.. on how cacat-ness will never deter someone from soaring through the skies...

and night fury a.k.a toothless is just awesomely cool..


and i am cool!!!! lol

currently doing my rural posting in a town called bassano (very the ulu man)
and i am quite the celebrity there...
in a small town where u know almost all ur neighbours,
yours truly was known as :

1. the one-legged doctor
2. Mr. hop-along
3. Dr. Moose who doesnt look like a Moose

fun all around;p i'll update on my bassano rendezvous if time permits
for now.. i'm painting the town NIGHT FURY!!!!

my new ride! wootwoot

sweet chariot!!!

deltoid powered, with lotsa torque whenever u need it
good handling - donuts and figure 8 is a breeze
also enhance ur upper body strength

vroom vroom;p

talking about ride.. i think this blog need a new drive..
at least something that can make it more..... normal;p

a new drive... hurmmmm

IRONY part 2

just when i tot my love for football fades
it gave me the utmost pleasure today

a derby win for united
a scrumptious spurs performance

darn it, i love this game;p

IRONY

looking back at my previous post, i couldnt help finding it odd that i might not be able to do what i love.

where my heart lies

with footie!!! where else..

the extreme of extremes: the day we played on ice and snow for an intramural games

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

congratulation to me!!!! according to rumors and some general consensus, i'm already attached!!!!
the best part about this piece of 'news of the century' is that, i was left out of the loop!!!!

can somebody (especially those who are involved in these none-of-my-bussiness-mongering issue) please tell me to whom might i be attached to and when did that happen.. hahaha still can't stop laughing my hearts out..

hahahaha~

this just made my day;p

it has come to this... finally..

first time i'm 'actually' stressed over an exam
psychiatry
owh how i hate thee...
so far, so vague, so not 'me' beyond my comprehension

but i WILL march on..
march march march

oo... i just realized that marching and the month of march have the same spelling.. lol
coz in march i'll be in MALAYSIA!!! YAY...

soldier on...

another reason why i can't do psych..
i'm a social retard with extremely low inhibition
call me histrionic, call me antisocial
i couldn't care less..

history taking and consult sessions,
schizo patients
the moment he/she share the hallucinations:
1. look down at note - trying to surpress laughter
2. scribble nonsense - surpression not working
3. take tissue paper, pretend to have snot or something - threhold breeched
4. burst in catatonic laughter
5. red-faced, asked for forgiveness, go toilet
6. com back and the whole cycle repeats..

then when i see depressed patients
tried my bst to put on a smile and a caring face
up to a point my smile cramped
the rest of the day, end up as depressed as the patients

manic and bipolar patients are the only saving grace
coz i think i can relate.. lol

too emotionally invoved and retarded
can't wait to say goodbye to psych..

fingers crossed for the exam!!!

marching on...

circumstancial thought form..

damage report..

after almost 2 weeks on the road here are the casualties:

1. gained 3kgs.. time to iron out the fat!!! roar!!!
2. lost my olympus charger
3. money~~~
4. bruises and a few rashes on the upper limbs (courtesy of jem's nail, ben's carpet burn, and some mild reaction to blackpool's duvet hahahah)
5. 1 less towel (dundee;p - present for siaw to remember me by lol)
6. loads of work piling up...

but all in all.. it's all worth it..

meeting old fren is like spring cleaning.. tiring yes, but u'll definately stumbles across few surprises that bear memories which may warm ur heart out..

~

how time has changed and keeps on changing
so must I
the bearer of tomorrow