scene one:
on the way home from a relative's place
driving while talking to dad
well below speed limit
in the middle lane
a guy made an illegal left turn
wham!!!!!!
blacked out
scene 2:
woke up with massive headache on the hospital bed
~that's because of the lacerated skull
tried to move... pain!!!
~that's because of the multiple fracture she had
clavicle snapped, ribs broken, patellar gone with the wind, talus and calcaneus MIA
excruciating pain!!!
blacked out
scene 3:
woke up still in pain
asked: "where's my dad?"
no answers
confused, dazed
blacked out
scene 4:
bro came in
words of consolation offered
"M, dad didn't make it"
no reaction
blank face
blacked out
these 4 scenes is a chronological representation of what happened to a MVA patient
motor vehicle accidnet
she/the driver is not at fault.. no not her
but.....
darn it i almost cried in the lecture teatre
attended a trauma lecture by the trauma department
patient presentation
and the magic of the medical world
the doctor manage to salvage what's left of her ankle by forming a new calcaneus by using a part of the pelvic bone... awesomeness!!!
recovery still going on.. been 2 years
when asked about what's the worst part of her experience she said..
it's not the pain
it's not the thought that i might not be able to walk after this
but not knowing what happened to my dad
nobody wanted to tell me everything
even my brother
they waited until the social worker came!!!
it's just... so painful
which made me think
what's our ROLE as a doctor
just to fix and then run?
why wait for the social worker?
why can we break the bad news?
and then it hit me...
am i STRONG enough to do so?
what if i said the WRONG things?
and why would i even CARE?
should i CARE?
up to this point i feel very useless
sure i can diagose with hours of mugging in the library
sure i can manage the patients with proper training
but can i HEAL them?
treat the patient as a WHOLE
as a PERSON
that's what been taught
but isn't that asking to much from a person
emotional stability
mental efficiency
spiritual pillar
am thinking too much again
sweat sweat sweat
just a gentle reminder for me i guess
that to be a good doctor, 'I' need to be HUMAN
anyway.. the main goal of the talk was to educate people that there's no such thing as accident
the word accident itself clouds our jugdement on what really happened
cause and effect they say
check and balance
i did that so i got this
and this applies really well in MVA
and other medical conditions
"patient's education, eveyone
can put us outta our job but will make the world a better place"
~speaker
on the way home from a relative's place
driving while talking to dad
well below speed limit
in the middle lane
a guy made an illegal left turn
wham!!!!!!
blacked out
scene 2:
woke up with massive headache on the hospital bed
~that's because of the lacerated skull
tried to move... pain!!!
~that's because of the multiple fracture she had
clavicle snapped, ribs broken, patellar gone with the wind, talus and calcaneus MIA
excruciating pain!!!
blacked out
scene 3:
woke up still in pain
asked: "where's my dad?"
no answers
confused, dazed
blacked out
scene 4:
bro came in
words of consolation offered
"M, dad didn't make it"
no reaction
blank face
blacked out
these 4 scenes is a chronological representation of what happened to a MVA patient
motor vehicle accidnet
she/the driver is not at fault.. no not her
but.....
darn it i almost cried in the lecture teatre
attended a trauma lecture by the trauma department
patient presentation
and the magic of the medical world
the doctor manage to salvage what's left of her ankle by forming a new calcaneus by using a part of the pelvic bone... awesomeness!!!
recovery still going on.. been 2 years
when asked about what's the worst part of her experience she said..
it's not the pain
it's not the thought that i might not be able to walk after this
but not knowing what happened to my dad
nobody wanted to tell me everything
even my brother
they waited until the social worker came!!!
it's just... so painful
which made me think
what's our ROLE as a doctor
just to fix and then run?
why wait for the social worker?
why can we break the bad news?
and then it hit me...
am i STRONG enough to do so?
what if i said the WRONG things?
and why would i even CARE?
should i CARE?
up to this point i feel very useless
sure i can diagose with hours of mugging in the library
sure i can manage the patients with proper training
but can i HEAL them?
treat the patient as a WHOLE
as a PERSON
that's what been taught
but isn't that asking to much from a person
emotional stability
mental efficiency
spiritual pillar
am thinking too much again
sweat sweat sweat
just a gentle reminder for me i guess
that to be a good doctor, 'I' need to be HUMAN
anyway.. the main goal of the talk was to educate people that there's no such thing as accident
the word accident itself clouds our jugdement on what really happened
cause and effect they say
check and balance
i did that so i got this
and this applies really well in MVA
and other medical conditions
"patient's education, eveyone
can put us outta our job but will make the world a better place"
~speaker
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