#113 - what if's

yet another random post
after yet another sleppless night..
heck.. maybe i should seek help.. soon!!!!

anyway..
was browsing thru pics, videos and other stuffs
bit's and parcels of what peeps pronounce as memories
the past, flashbacks

then this miniscule brain of mine suddenly functions (for once)
why would peeps want to look back into time, their past, history
it is indeed no longer their story.. it's his' story
belonging to their old self
and u know it as much as i do
we no longer are the our old self
we evolved, we changed, we grew

i might be biased and dun get me wrong
i really like my past.. my footprints
i do believe i have a great background, prelude to what i am now
just that nagging WHAT IF'S questions
really really hate it
it's as if i'm not content with what i have now
questioning every move i used to take
every path throdden by these legs
come on.. move on already
next page.. next chapter

but whenever i looked back
there it is
the monster of WHAT IF'S
lurking down the alley
blocking the path to 'the tomorrow'
leading u to an endless roundabouts and u-turns

denise tot me something once
there's no more u-turns
there shouldn't be
even if u made a mistake, just take a tiny step back
reflect then move on!!!
(couldn't believe i'm taking que's from a bimbo potatohead)

now i really cannot sleep..

have to admit, i loved the 'WHAT IF'S' box
with it u can be anything u want, with just the 'right' choice
u can be a superstar! a great lover! an awesome architect!
a pianist! anyone! just anyting u would ever imagine
but this BOX shall remained closed
cause nothing good can ever come out off it
the pandora box!!

screw me for thinking of such nonsense
mind you, i never reviewed my previous post
write write write -- publish
which explains all the rubbish i've posted before

now that i mentioned it, there's nothing 'wise' about me projecting out of this chunk of hot stuff
crap crap crap
what if i'm a lil' wiser?
what if i can be a lil' smarter?
what if i'm a lil' less socially retarded?

~

ask me again in 10 years time
i dun think i wan/can answer that now

memories are there to remind u of ur old self
not to predict what u could be in the future
it is there to let u know that u used to be better/worse
so u can do someting to change it
memoirs are there to make u aware that u were once a somebody
apart of this somebody u call self
(what philisophical crap is that!!!)

all i know.. i dun like the what if's question

i'm the servant of the Almighty
serving HIS cause
looking back on mistakes
an ardent student of non-repetiting cycle

~but so far i failed?

i am indeed... a lengzhai ;p

#112 - ASTROBOY!!!!

after 'that humiliating' game
we went out for dim sum
with janet as the honorary guest
the birthday dim sum girl

budin, bulat, lee shi, janet, vi-en, day-o, siti, kak ridza, abang joe in liverpool jersey!!!!, ilia in liverpool jersey!!! jer and me

2 revelation that day:
1. shouldnot brag about united in fornt of abang joe anymore;p
2. one my favorite dim sum dish (one being the egg tart, the other one being the curry octopus), the carrot cake, was deem not halal!!!

whatthefreakinggfishiswrongwiththemmatasepetpeeps

carrot cake supposed to be CARROT and CAKE
where got people put pork inside!!!!!
all this while, i've been eating pork!!! after vehemently asking the owner for no pork dish!!
each and everytime man.. i asked he said no.. i asked he said no..
until that day.. i found the minced piece of un-holy delight;p

haiyo.. i'm saying goodbye to that restaurant.. F that F restaurant
silver dragon, i shall be your loyal dim sum eater from now on..
lol

which means that i need another outlet to let things cool down..
ASTROBOY!!!
OMGOSH OMGOSH OMGOSH
i even got a t-shirt from japan for this show..
yay..
ok la the show.. not bad.. good enuf for a lengzhai like me
had a good laugh and great company
day-o, vi-en, janet and leeshi..

yay..

woohoo!!!

check out my astroboy tee... can see the insides from different angle.. woohoo..

i dun care what u say about my jakun tee but i'm proud of it.. lol

#111 eating humble pie

sigh~
deserving lost
there's nothing you can say more than that
roon left his boots at home
anderson was left on the bench

expectin lostsa bashing from me dad
abang joe
abang sham
and the list shall go on and on and on

come december
the real race will start
no worries

~
yet

;p

TONIGHT WE DINE IN HELL!!!!

THE RED DEVIL'S WAY!!!
ROAR!!!!

united at anfield
yet another epic encounter
hopefully it's going to be as dramatic as the citeh game
without the shaky defense of course

anderson to shine
with rooney and his usual self

fingers crossed

image taken from http://sport.mthai.com/wp-content/uploads/2009/09/anderson_rooney300.jpg

109# where the wild things are

yup, we went out to watch the show after the exam result
not a bad show at all
at times quite freaky and dark

but the best part of going out for the show tonight was chris' new toque
hand made, hand sowned
just for the show and of course for halloween

a nice 'night-out' indeed
good movie, great company
ditto!

108# an afternoon off

been a long time i had such pleasure
so while waiting for the bus home
sat on the cold grass
can't believe it's fall and it's already freezing
but the best part of the afternoon was the sun
gosh.. it was so majestic today
with the ray, came warmth
when i got back to my senses
i have been 'sun-ray-bathing' for 3 hours!!
with my ass frozen stiff but my mood to the 7th heaven

i feel like superman
generating power from the sun
i feel like a cat
sprawled under the sunlight with no care in the world
i feel...
ALIVE!
feeling the grace of the almighty
the love of the creator

the best day of the week
been a gloomy week
clouds, strong wind and rain
but like they always say, there's always a silver lining in everything in life
and i tend to seize every moment of it

sun.. me like

p/s: checked the forecast, snow on monday!!! noooooooooooooooooooooooooooo....

#107 - image of the week

gosh.. i just love this photo
the CSY pose..

curi from cheemz facebook album..

it's like nothing has change
not even one bit..

~lalala~